self sacrifice

a filipino overseas foreign worker was found dead inside the lavatory of a ‘gulf air’ plane the other day. that plane is the same one i take every time i go home for days off. i read he took his own life while the plane was preparing to land in manila, using a ‘clothing article’ to asphyxiate himself by hanging.

it is not easy being away from one’s family. here in the middle east, there are instances that one will be assigned for work remotely, with limited ways of communication. i have been working here in saudi arabia for five years and have seen co-workers who were in the brink of ‘losing’ it, specially when there are problems back home with their families.

i remember way back, my ma never tells my father who is also in saudi arabia any ‘bad news’ as much as possible. she even warns me and my siblings not to write or call about to him anything that might make him worry or make him sad because she said being away from us is already hard for him and it will just leave him feeling helpless. i followed my father’s footsteps of working here in the mideast, it was then that i appreciated my father more, for i clearly saw the sacrifice he did for our family.

i am thinking of the man on that plane. is it self-sacrifice or his last resort to escape? his exact reason no one will really know for he has brought it with him to his grave.

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leap of destiny

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“what’s left for me for the rest of my life is just to be a burden to others, don’t be too sad.  aren’t life and death both part of nature?  don’t feel sorry.  don’t blame anybody . . it’s destiny.”

from former south korean president roh moo-hyun, found as a suicide note after hurling himself off a 30 meter high cliff to his death near his rural home in the village of bongha.

korean suicide

suicide-by-cbd

six in every 10 south korean teenagers have thought about taking their own lives at least once . . .

according to statistics, there were 12,174 suicides representing 5% of all deaths in 2007.  it’s also said that an annual average 23.6 koreans committed suicide out of 100,000 people in the last five years, which is one of the highest levels in the world.

i have read on the web of ‘copycat suicides’ becoming a common thing among young south korean actors and actresses.  they say in korea, there exists a high mental and emotional pressure that roots out from their society itself.  depression in fact is a primary factor which triggers them to end their own lives.

suffocation

suicide affects everyone, directly or indirectly without regards to one’s own culture, social status, education, race nor religion.  suicide is a form of a permanent escape – an irreversible solution, an act of cowardice and a waste of human life.